to put it simply
im fairly certain that im exhausted with people, maybe even humanity in general, im tired of having to socialize, smile and be nice
i dont really want to be me anymore, that is, i dont want myself--my mind my body or anything i want to just float around and watch the world and be left alone
i need to just disappear for awhile and get to know myself
thats what i need to do, but, honestly im not that interested in getting to know myself, solely b/c i find myself to be tiring and incomprehensible. i'd rather just disappear, and forget that there was aver a me and that there was ever anything
a simple non-thinking existance
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I hear what you are saying in this post. My teenage years were rough- I came from a dysfinctional family and I was all messed up in my head. I had so many feelings inside that I couldn't make sense of. I remember wanting to be invisible at times.
However, finding out who you are deserves interaction with other people. How will you ever know where you fit in or what you want if you don't interact with people? By rubbing shoulders with others, you can say, "Wow, I like that person, I want to be more like that" or "I definitely don't want to be a jerk like that".
Have you ever taken a personality test? Finding out which of the 4 basic personalities I was (Melancholy, Sanguine, Choleric, Phlegmatic) really helped me a lot in forming my opinion of, and understanding who I was.
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