i dont have any feelings specifically to spill right now. life is more than slightly confusing sometimes.
i watched drop dead fred today, its a cool movie i suppose, for some reason i really connected with the main character it was a little weird how much i was identifying with her. so i thought about it and came to an understanding with myself; i can identify with her struggles with her imaginary friend because i want one, or rather, i want an excuse to be insane and just do crazy things. then i thought some more and i realized that i really do have an imaginary friend, not in the sense that he/she has a name and appearance; but in the sense that i retreat into my head fropm time to time and just talk to myself, and i become my only real friend. which is a terrible thing because i have all these amazing people who im pretty sure care about me and i just can't bring myself to tell them absolutly everything, i used to but i just can't anymore. so i created this sort of alternate reality in my head where i just exist. and its quite nice i must admit
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