"this ain't fucking disneyland"

well i slept for ever last night
but i dont feel refreshed, it may be because it
was more of a passout sleep rather than a sleep-sleep

however, as a result of this lack of refreshment, i sat in my
bed for a while trying to remeber the last time i really slept
really well
and i discovered that i can only sleep and wake up feeling very
awesome when i am comfortable, the unfortunate repercussions
of this odd tick are that im not that comfortable in my mom's house ever
and a lot of the time im not comfortable in my dad's house
i will never forget the best nap i ever had

i was at a house that was not mine, and the band was practicing, very loudly,
i might add, and i was doing homework in the next room, very tired due
to a series of nightly fight/disagreements with my mom
i fell asleep
in my math book, in the middle of loud band practice, only one room over
in the middle of the afternoon
and i woke up to see my then- significant other
playing the guitar i think
sitting in the doorway watching me sleep in my book
i felt really awesome after that nap, i think it didn't really come across to my friends
but thats just because i was very groggy from the deep sleep i had been in
but anyways..he said it was cute and i said something im sure it was sarcastic
i didn't mean it if it was, i was definately thinking that i could have sat there forever, but i
was so surprised at my self for sleeping so well
that my brain wasn't functioning properly enough

this is a good memory that i have,
im glad i have good memories, everyone needs some of those