rain

i can't remember my thought that i had

i know that it is raining
and i know that i had the thought when i was getting my bookbag out of my car

i know that i started painting something cool today
and i hope it works out
i know that i probably wont ever finish this essay
and i know why
i wont ever finish it because its the most important thing in the world
thats a slight hyperbole
but its so important to me that im scared to do it
because if i mess it up
then i wont know what to do
i can't finish it because it matters to me
and my dad walks by and thinks im working on it but im typing this
oops

i know all of that
but i can't remember what it was i wanted to tell you

im ready for the yeare to be over
i want to get out of here soon
i might be suffocating

ps
some people need to mind their own business
especially self righteous bitches who have no business nosing in on my family
my little sister is not here for your gossiping pleasure
talk about my parents, my brother
talk about me!
leave her out of your twisted version of life and entertainment