happy thanksgiving

the awarding of appreciation

i am thankful for you, that there is someone out there who will read other people's blogs, regardless of the inanity

i am appreciative of people

elizabeth, ronni, mat, mostly

andrea, yes, and do you know..i am thankful for allyn

and rafe

i have, as of late, come to a general sense of peace, i think i may have already talked about it

but im quite proud of myself

yes, i still fight with my mom, i still get mad at charlotte, i still argue with benjamin, i still secretly want to hit my father in the face

i still have all my flaws

i still argue, but im better at keeping some of my arguments inside and keeping my mouth shut

i still bottle my feelings, but i analyze them now, they're still inside mostly, but i know they are there and i accept them

i still talk too much, im still scared to hear what other people have to say

im still horrible with change

i still do all these things, but, i think, in a less ddramatice, more moderate kind of way

and all to all those people mentioned above--

i thank you

and owe you

im thankful that im provided for, that i have way more than enough

im thankful that i can walk, see, feel, hear

im thankful for the leftover uncle poons i just ate

im thankful that my room has two windows that face the sunrise

im calm right now