so long and thanks for all the fish

its time for me to move on
go some where else and get away from everything

i dont think i've ever felt this alone
it might be because im grounded and haven't seen anyone for quite some time
but maybe i really just need to go

i got furious at my mom today because i came home and she had put a rug in my room and a bedside table

normally, i would have tried to deal with the fact that she changed my space and simply asked her to move it
but in this instance, she asked me multiple times if i wanted a rug, or a bedside table--each time i replied "no, thanks, i dont want too much cluttering up my room"
and yet--i came home from mydad's house and there's a rug and a table
i desperately hope that i wasn't just mad that she changed my room with out asking
because i haven't been this angry in a long time
i really want this to be a manifestation of some other thing im angry about--but there are very few things to blame it on
the thing is, i think i really was that upset about the change

im ready to move on and get away from things like this because i can step back and know that it is a stupid thing to get upset about, but im upset anyway, even as i type this,
i want to move on so that i stop burdening others with my issues, stop causing problems in my family, and stop making myself feel like crap