today is a winding road thats taking me to places that i didn't want to go

every now and then i realize that im at art school
i still feel like im at sleepaway camp pr whatever, but im not
i like it alot, even better i probably love it
its just hard getting used to not being able to see my family whenever i want to
i've gone from living within a mile of all the main parts of my family to living four or five hours away from all of them

i guess its not like i've always liked them that much (at all)
maybe its more of a culture shock but in a family way

they're there all the time, when you want them and mostly when you don't

SUDDENLY

they're not

also
i hate to put too much of my romantic relationships on here, but whatever
i hate that i've gone from being able to spend the majority of my time with ian, and seeing him everyday, to seeing him for a couple of days every two weeks
its not that i can't handle life without him
its more the fact that i've still got ties to somewhere else besides where i am, and that i miss him at the same time


also
i've developed this really embarassing habit of listening to boys like girls
i fought it and i fought it
but today i realized...their songs all about being young, being in love, and staying that way
which is, of course, the way all pop songs are and i dont know what it is about these ones, but they connect with me

because there are few thing that i want more right now than staying young