hi again

well now having done my math project and facing an entire week of school
i am no longer so optimistic about my relationships with others,
in fact, now im going to be honest with myself,
sure having an emotional connection with people is way better when unfettered with physical complications
thats great and i do really enjoy it
but here's the honest part:
honestly, i can only emotionally connect with maybe 4 people, and maybe thats all i need,
but i dont want to pretend like i have an emotional relationship with alot of people
i love those people that i have that relationship with
i would give them the world if i could
but i cant, so i give them what i can
my emotions, which mean the world to me
my emotions are a part of my definition
they provide insight into marianna
for you that have my emotions:
i love you, and this is how i try to tell you

as for the physical aspect of my life?
(because im a relatively physical person)
who knows what i'll do
continue to thank god for college boys fond of the phenomenon known as a booty call?
no
i suppose only time will tell
i think i'll survive, no worries, there are other things more important

hi there

well
right now i'm really enjoying having emotional relationships with people, its like being on a different level, theres no physical bullshit that can mess with everything and cloud your mind
but
its spring,and i think miss having someone to hold hands with
more than that im anxious to get out of here
to go to school and learn things that interest me
to go new places and see new things and new people that i haven't seen everyday for the past couple of years
other than that i had a fantastice time in new york, i got to see rent again and it was really cool, but in no way measured up to the color purple - which was beautiful

thats all